Despair - n ; hopelessness

Ellie: [her last message to Carl] Thanks for the adventure. Now go have one of your own.

I realize that I blog with pictures more then words now a days.

Anyways so lately all I have been getting are rejection letters and slowly I'm starting to just give up on myself. I've been trying really hard to understand my classes and not procrastinate now but it's too late. Even appealing might not even work. My mistakes that I have made in my previous high school years will determine my future and I'm not happy with it.

What am I doing? I have to pull myself together!

This is harder then it seems..

I need sleep, medicine, healthier meals, & more time to relax.