& i feel

fucken stupid for not saying what i wanted to say..

i know that i was such a burden and i have added more stress onto your life.. i'm sorry

i knew in the beginning what i was getting myself into.. but i made my decision because it was too good to be true. fuck my life

but i can't give up on myself, i'm not giving up because i'm stronger then this

i'm just letting myself fall

it's all my fault.

im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry

not my day

rawrs so today was pretty blah. last night i stayed up talking on the phone with jonny till like 1:30ish then ricky texted me saying that he needed someone to talk to so i called him and i didn't sleep till like 2

morning showers calms me down

school was whatevers. i felt sick today. i knocked out in practically all my classes.

work was the same. got paid today! after work michelle and i went to the bank then we saw my didi wilson. then we went to lollidup. michelle bought me crisp cut fries :) thanks love then i decided to talk a little walk after i walked michelle home.

rawrs so this morning i found this song on my ipod, it suddenly caught my attention, then i put it on repeat and man it made me tear.. i'm patient enough to wait, but i miss having him around..

so alot of shit is still going on that's apparently happening to a bunch of people i know. april curse man. april curse.

Dear Life,

I HATE YOU!

on the bright side i'm understanding chem a little better :)

chinatown

so earlier atis kept talking to me bout domo, so i suddenly wanted to go domo shopping! so then i told michelle the story & she was down :) RIGHT BEFORE I LEFT! i checed the mail, and my Almost Human shirt from woot came! :D so then i meet michelle up in chinatown. went to lollicup then to neotype. then to robo con. zomg Julie was on crack or something! we didnt know that julie and chiara worked there haha so like we were tempted on getting a domo shirt. but nahh too expensive for a shirt. then we walked around chinatown and i really had to pee! oh and i made michelle go into the boy's bathroom to get me paper towel :] ahhaha after we just wandered around. while all the stores were closing. and we ended up at this one store, and we spend our money on the cutest shit ever! and afterwards we had fun trying to find a way out cause they locked all teh gates x.x SO TO WRAP IT ALL UP! I DIDNT BUY ANY DOMO STUFF NOR DID I FIND MY PURPLE WINNIE THE POOH ELEPHANT! but i got a cute fat wannabe mickey mouse duck :D and michelle got peed/shited on by a bird after she walked me to my bus stop xD I LOVE YOU DONT MURDER ME!

sunday morning

Today, I woke to find my boyfriend of 2 years gone. I saw my little sister's talking bear at the bottom of my bed, it said "squeeze me" so I squeezed it and it said "it's over. It was my boyfriends voice. I was dumped by a talking bear. FML

I DID NOT WAKE UP TO A NICE MORNING! so i heard bubble noises when i woke up, i was like whats that sound.. i looked down and it was my dog throwing up =.=

The Climb - Miley Cyrus

Miley Cyrus - The Climb
I can almost see it
That dream I am dreaming
But there's a voice inside my head saying
"You'll never reach it"

Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking

But I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I'm not breaking

I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most, yeah
Just gotta keep going

And I, I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on

'Cause there's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Somebody's gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

Keep on moving, keep climbing
Keep the faith, baby
It's all about, it's all about the climb
Keep the faith, keep your faith, whoa

chinatown & gleandale :)

FIRST OF ALL! THIS IS SOOOO CUTE <3
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=epUk3T2Kfno

so today i woke up to 3 text messages. eff you guys for waking me up! but it felt goood to catch up on sleep :)

So as i was heading to chinatown to meet up with beef [atis] i almost got hit by a car =.= oh and i walked by my house that i grew up in when i was born. damn.. it looks so differnt.. we use to have a beautiful garden in the front now it looks like shit. finally i met up with beef and we waited for May, then we walked her to her doctor's place and went to hill street cafe. woot woot atis treated me to boba! ;D then i poured all my left over boba into his haha dana and michelle finally came and we headed off to pho boardway to meet up with may. mhmm yummy pho! when michelle was looking through my camera, she showed it to vincent's dad and he was all like "elaing?!" haha maybe he didnt recognize me as much as vincent's mom. so after steven came and we finished eating, we went to wait for the dash. ZOMG IT TOOK FOREVER! michelle decided on not going so it was just me dana and steven.

damn it took forever to get to glendale to meet up with ray and anthony. i ended up buying 6 tops all less then $30 :D i felt like such a smart shopper. haha damn we bumped into sooo many people today! chiara, julie, my sister & her bf, cathy & her sister, and christy haha i was sad that carlotte russe didnt have the 2 shirts that i really wanted T.T its ok i'm happy with what i have though. so after dana, steven, ray, and anthony left, i went to jamba juice and tried White gummy bear for the first time. it was pretty good :) then i went to meet up with my sister, i got bored so i decided on walking around more. then we left bout 8:30 stopped by wallgreens to pick up pics, went to burrito king, YUMMM then got home bout somewhere close to 9

so while walking around bymyself around the mall, my friend kelly was texting me. we had this conversation about me transferring, and she said she wanted to transfer too, but i told her that she shouldnt cause then she'll have many people who would miss her and especially her tennis coach since she's been top for long. and i was telling her my reason to why i regret not transferring. i can honestly say that i dont feel like i belong at verdugo. i'm not happy there. i stayed because of friends. but this year i realize that they weren't the friends that i stayed for.. i dont really have a reason to stay. [and my dog is snoring x.x] before freshmen year i had the choice of belmont or verdugo. hells no i didnt want either but i had to go verdugo cause my sister and cousins were there. typicla asians parents. i was only whatevers bout it cause i knew people there. assuming we'd all always be together forever [damn was i young and stupid] we all seperated. in middle school everyone was like "i'm so happy you'll come to verdugo! we usually only get to see you once in a while! now we get to see each other everyday!" i felt like i had a big group of friends that would stick together. but damn was i wrong. high school changes everyone. another reason was because i got onto the dance team. damn freshmen year to now has been blah. i never had a year of high school that i enjoyed. everything started falling apart. i lost a best friend. a bunch of friendships were ruined. so much has happened. i don't have anyone that i can depend on for help when i need it. honestly, i think that it won't even matter if i leave, cause i'm always thrown away to the side anyways.

i can be so much more happier then i am now..

patience

Los Angeles' Asian & Pacific Islander American Heritage Month Performance [last one of the year] & CECA Banquet

April 24, 2009

HAPPY 2 MONTHS VAN WIFEYY <3

http://abclocal.go.com/kabc/feature?section=resources/lifestyle_community/community&id=6770535

WHOOO I GOT TO SLEEP IN TODAY! it felt goood :) but i was still sleepy. so i got up about 7:05 and got dropped off at Dennie's & Trinh's house about 7:40ish. I saw Anthony & Annie! :P Quynh came about a few mins after i was dropped off. Then Tiffany came. chilled for a while. went to the church to get the stuff. headed over to lincoln. damnnn lagged like crazy! so while waiting there was a car accident :O anyways. it was 8:30 and everyone was having problems with getting out of class and bus still wasnt here. LAG! then we sang happy birthday to hoanggg :) AND FINALLY THE BUS CAME! ON WARDS TO CITY HALL! ok actually we had to stop by korea town but or bus was too full so the bus driver took us to city hall first. BUTT! to pick on me, trinh&dennis were like "hey jennifer we're picking up that korean girl from the tournament" and i was like "WHAT WHERE?! *HOLDS UP FIST" and then! they took a picture of my ready to kick butt face haha. anyways! we finally got to city hall! and it was coldddddddd ~ we wandered around for a while. and omg there was this dudeee that was a candy artist :O i wanted a rose but we had to go change and try out the stage. blah blah blah and traditional didnt get to perform cause of techincal difficulties so we rushed into changing into mdern. performed blah blah blah. and that was our last performance of the yearrrr ~ after we just wandered around and THE BUS LAGGED IT LIKE CRAZYYY! oh and ken luo texted me asking me to prom. it's a maybe. then we dropped off everyone back at school :) hahah loser! JUST KIDDING I LOVE YOU GUYS! Quynh, Dennis, Trinh, & I walked back to the car and they treated us to Carl's Jr. THANK YOU GUYSSS <3 size="5">

I WANNA WATCH HANNAH MONTANA THE MOVIE!
&& GOOD LUCK MESA KIDS!

in van's computer class

so i'm here at lincoln for the past few hours doing nothing but sleeeping

:)

i feel like transferring

out of verdugo and going to lincoln

yup you heard me.

i'll update later. i'm webcamming with van right now ;)

life

"Life is about who you love and who you hurt. It's about how you feel
about yourself. It's about trust, happiness and compassion. It's about
sticking up for your friends and replacing inner hate with love. Life
is about avoiding jealousy, overcoming ignorance and building
confidence. It's about what you say and what you mean. It's about
seeing people for who they are and not what they have. Most of all, it
is about choosing to use your life to touch someone else's in a way
that could never have been achieved otherwise."

common planning!

which means that we didn't have 4th period! :D

chem we just mixed things, it was fun
cont comp we had a drill
lunch i went to CSF
math analysis i sorta kinda understood what we were doing :)

after i got off the school bus i walked over to McDonald to meant up with Van <3 style="text-align: center;">& i finally got my donut from dana! <3>

so that conversation with michelle.. she wanted me to call, but there was no answer. i always thought that we were ok with the whole school first thing.. i didn't mind.. i'd rather have you do that.. but i didn't think that it'll end up like this.. rawr i wanna hear it from him...

its sooo hot!

bobasaur (7:19:11 PM): should i take off my clothes then? ;]

vann y xp (7:19:52 PM): OMGGGG

vann y xp (7:20:00 PM): ARE YOU GONNA MAKE EVERYONE DIE?!

vann y xp (7:20:13 PM): I think I'ma melt

vann y xp (7:20:14 PM): lol

bobasaur (7:21:52 PM): LOLLLL

bobasaur (7:21:58 PM): will it work? ;]

vann y xp (7:22:14 PM): pshh, talking about it made me melt xD

vann y xp (7:22:21 PM): I jst came back from wetting myself

vann y xp (7:22:23 PM): with cold wate

vann y xp (7:22:25 PM): water*

vann y xp (7:22:25 PM): ROFL

bobasaur (7:22:26 PM): LOLLL!

happy birthday ken chhan :)

OMFG I OVER SLEPT TODAY!

my alarm went on at 10 and i forgot what i was going to do so i went back to sleep, i woke up about 10:45 and i was like.. oh shit.. i have dancel practice at 11 ><

my sister dropped me off at practice about 11:30 and i walked in on andy & tiffnay cleaning. after a while i was like.. "andy why are you here early?" and apparently he's replacing helen because for the performance this friday, we're performing for the mayor and its going to be recorded live in US & Asia! yup! thanks right! so i got hungry and went to rite aid with binh. yummm ice cream. finally we started teaching andy helen's part. so now i'm taking michelle's part in this. and tiffany screams at me "JENN! CAN YOU GROW TALLER WITHIN THE NEXT FEW DAYS?!" haha your funny tiffany >< after we started practicing on modern. OMFG I'M SOOO TIRED FROM IT! ADAM WORKED US! HE MADE ME REDO AND GO OVER THE ROUTINE 84903284092 TIMES JUST TO GET IT PERFECT! WITH ONLY 2-5 MINS OF BREAK! WE WERE ALLL READY TO PASSS OUT! when practice was finally over, i knocked out on the floor next to van.

after practice, dennis & trinh took van, gerry, justin, and i out to get ice cream & yougurt in alhabra :) thanksssssssss <3

bobasaur (7:42:38 PM): ello ding bag. how was your birthday? :]

IV (7:42:55 PM): my birthdayyy.

IV (7:43:02 PM): damn, it couldn't have gone any better.

IV (7:43:05 PM): i woke up three hours ago.

IP Basketball Tournament O9

-April 18, 2009-

ZOMG MY FACE WAS VIOLATED TODAY! D:

so i got up about 6:15 and baked cookies. then i went back to sleep and my alarm went on so i called dana to wake up. and she called davis to wake up. apparently dana fell back asleep when i went to shower =.= so then i got ready and walked over to Tracy's & her mommy dropped us off at young nak. we got there like 7:31 to be exact. AND DENNNIS WAS LATE! I'M EXPECTING DONUTS!

FINALLY they arrived. and i just helped the IP commitee set up the stuff. then people started coming in. and i got my shirt! YUCA 2 LIME GREEN! IM NUMBER 15! started warming up but taking a couple of shots. stupid brian was being an ass to meeee! >[ then there were these two girls [zomg they look like twins!] that came in trying to get the ball but they couldnt, so then when i got one i just gave it to the one of them but when i saw her name tag and the other girls, it was tiffany & cindy, so i was like.. why do they sound so familiar.. anyways so continuing to take a couple of shoots. and BAM i got hit hard on the face with the ball =.= GG MANNN! so of course it was painful and i started crying a little but i went to the bathrom to wash my face. and went back to warm up.

i walked over to the stage and trinh called me over and gave me a sign and it said "Asian Club (Intermediate)" which meant that i had to hold the sign up for that team during opening ceremony. i looked back and the people and i was like "oh shit its you guys haha" stupid brian. after opening ceremony. IT WAS GAME TIME! BUT since JROTC dropped, we dont play till 3rd game. first game was yuca#1 vs csc. yuca won! :D while watching the game, davis came over with bandages on his face. so i went over and i was like wtf happen? damnnn he got scratched up! it was nastyyy >< poor davis <3 then it was young nak vs jyc. we were going to try to play a game before lunch. but then dennis decided on just letting us play after lunch. young nak won. then it was time for lunch.

during lunch i was just using davis sidekick and trying not to eat too much. and we watched teh 3-pointer contest. FINALLY our other missing team mates came! after lunch we headed back to downey. GAME TIME BABY! so we were warming up. it was YUCA#2 vs. CSC. DAMNNN we RAPED THEM! 23-2. it was going to be 23-0 but then trinh wanted us to let them get points so we can be nice and increase the peace. haha after that i just chilled for a bit. after that i went back out to play our next game. YUCA#2 vs JYC. damnnn tough game! there was this one chick on there team that was all up on me and she SLAPPED me so i scream out WTH and everyone went dead silent. i was pissss. so i had the ball and she was still on me. then she fouled. eh he! damn intense game cause they caught up! then the final score was 23-11 i believe. time to rest once again. so i went inside just to chill cause damn that game was.. x.x and i realize taht michelle left. WITH MY CAMERA. so i was piss. after i went to grab my stuff from outside because it was the finals. YUCA#2 vs Young Nak. so not looking forward to this game. warmed up. took a couple of shots. game time. SHITTT THIS GAME PISSED ME OFF THE MOST! FUCKEN GIRL ELBOWED ME IN THE FUCKEN FACE! ONE OF THE GUYS CRIPPLED ANDY. AND ALL ALL AGGRESSIVE. I HAD A LOVE CONNECTION WITH THE FLOOR ALOT! THEY PLAY EFFING ROUGH! once again playing at an intermediate level. the coaches had a talk. sucks for young nak cause they kept fouling :] but damn we could have caught up if they had stopped the clock when coaches were talking. so glad young nak is banned from playing in novice next year in volleyball&basketbal. make it more fair. i believe the score was.. 29-33? something like that. i dont remember. but damn im so glad that when they put me back in i was all over everyone! i was hellla piss. you dont mess wiht me when i'm piss. that girl. RAWR say wth to me one more time! i'll show you!

after our game we watch magnet play fcbc to play for 3rd place. unfortuantly they lost. finally it was fcbc vs young nak. OF COURSE everyone was cheering for fcbc! but they lost too :[ CLOSING CERMONY! haha it was fun throwing paper balls :P WHOOO 2ND PLACE BABY! and we got the pretty medal that i wanteed :] i got to hold the trophyyy! ~ and damn i was hella tanned! after we cleaned up and put everything in the cars. we walked over to young nak gym so we can get into dennis car. dropped off stuff at the church, and dennis and i went back to get the guys hat we left haha. then we were all just standing around talking. then we got into each car and headed out to dinner :]

we went to eat at fudgerockers in Burbank. wow it was hard to choose! and they ran out of cookies & creame shake :[ so while waiting, the guys and i were playing that sugar shot game. we got to the point where we threw 5 packs. so its more intense. i felt like being nice so i downed that 5 pack for seng. all the guys were like "how the fuck does she do that...*straes" i'm just that goood man! haha so our food came. yummm! they guys are just slow eaters. then we all just chilled and talked. THEY GUYS PASSED MY CUP AROUND SO MY DRINK WAS ALL GERMY! =.= but it was fun :] after we dropped everyone off. and now im at home. all tired.

-april 19,2OO9-

happpy birthday Ken Chhan!

april curse

shitttt i woke up sooo tired i knocked out in ALL of my classes. ok not all.. but majority. headachhh!

oh and i failed at Day of Silence. cause i talked in chem =.=

chem. shit i got caught sleeping. but i understood what we were doing in class so its allll goood :)

am lit. watched a video on Edgar Allan Poe. fell asleep but shittt everytime i woke up, scaryyy x.x

lunch. jamie wasn't at school :[ SHE WENT CAMPING! >;[ uhh what did i do during lunch.. >.>

math analysis. AHAHAH i was texting with 3 cellls mannn! cause i'm just that skilled :] whee! veronica is moving back to cali! but she'll still be at fresno.. BUT SHE'S GOING TO BE IN VAN NUEYS DURING SUMMER! sooo yay! i havent seen her since she moved :[ shiittt i failed my final. and i got a D in the class.. should i drop it? but davis wants me to stay because he has hope in me haha oh and when i left teh class to get a drink of water & use the bathroom, i was saying hi to my friend Jonathan. then this guy came up to me and ..
him: eyyy whats your name? your pretty cute. i'm pretty flyyy. are you single?
me: uhhh yeaa but i'm not interested.
him: ahh it's cool but you wanna be friends and we'll see what goes on from there?
me: friends, sure, but nothing more.
then i left to the bathroom. when i came out, i saw judy walking, so we talked a bit then that guy started talking ot me again
him: can i walk you to class?
me: no.
and i walked away :]

so i decided on not going to French3 cause i already finished my projct and i didn't want to sit around and do nothing. so i just went straight to lincoln. went to subway. then sam's house. he didn't want to leave me and debbie alone cause he think we're going to do "stuff" haha then i left. went to get a slush. and walked over to lincoln to find my loves :] found dana. and we walked to YUCA. stupid Ray & anthony was being gay. OHH AND I SAW VAN <3 pshh ditching class. went to Dana's house. then OFF THE YUCA!

so while at YUCA, dana and i helped out with dennis in the office. counted money for the tournament tomorrow. and wow i was looking at the price for the food and refs. X.X FUND RAISER! YOU NEED FUND RAISER! then we ate, IP commitee had their meeting. and i just sat there and ate. then we went to make the goody bags. dana, jenny, & i were tieing the bags. well they were and i was counting them, and putting em in the bag. then we were all talking bout how april is a bad month. march was madnss. and april was just.. blah.. ANYWAS whew! that was tiring! D: and carrying the bags to the car tooo! then we headed off to basketball practice.

basketball pactice was fun. i'm excited for the tournament tomorrow! i'm pumped! we got all vicious x.x

time to bake cookies :]

EWWW so dana, ray, michelle, davis, and steven are webcaming. and all the guys except for ray took off their shirts =.= stupid davis started it all

whattta dayyyyyyyy

what a day mannnn

chem
WHOOO I HAD A 106% IN THE CLASS! AND I FUCKEN BOMBED THE FINAL SO I STILL HAVE AN A! HAPPPY CAMPER! apparently i have the highest daily percentage. i was like "howd i get that when i don't do shit in class and i'm sleeping most of the time?" and bowman was like "idk, cause you do your work and do more then i expected. LOOK AT YOUR NOTEBOOK!"

am lit
worked on found poem on the Raven. got jennings was pissing me off.

lunch
IT WAS FREEEZING COLD! and yet i was eating ice cream :]

math analysis
ZOMFG FINAL! i'm fucked!

french3
i made a flower for madame :] and i'm done with my quilt thingy haha and it's not due till monday :P

so before YUCA i went to van's house. we spent our time reading FML. ahahha then we started laughing bout out own FML's! oh and we had cake :D
"so there was a peice of cake left. the 3 of us went for it. we looked down and realize we didnt get the peice of cake, but each otehrs hands FML" haha jk that didnt happen.

YUCA
happpy happpy happpy :) all jumping around. dennis gave me candy! ZOMG HE ACCUSED ME IN FRONT OF EVERYONE >< SO MEAN! had a talk with michelle, davis, and van that made me think. rawrs. after YUCA. i wish i didn't look away.. i wish i just did what i told myself i'll do.. why didn't i just smile and say hi instead of just looking away.. it was not my usually going crazy after YUCA.. around 7:30 i finally went back into the church cause dennis & trinh wanted to talked to me bout being on cabinet next year. then they drove me home.

webcam~
ray said he'd sing for me but he lied! RAY YOUR AN ASSHOLE!
my hair is getting long again.
basketball practice tomorrow!
tournament saturday!
WOOOT WOOOOT

this time i won't hold back.

i just wannna..

shut out the world.

i'm tired of hearing everyone saying to forget bout it and that it's not worth it. cause you know what? i can't make a decision till we talk. i can't be mad if i don't know whats going on. even so.. i refuse to ever be mad..

lack of sleep, eating less, not being myself, no its not because of it. it's because i'm trying really hard to get my study habits back. i have the will to work hard now. you know why? cause i've meet someone who actually made a difference in my life and who doesn't only say it but pushes me to try harder.

friends.. i'm back to where i'm having trouble trusting people. will i ever be appreciated? i'm done being taking advantage of and dumped as if i never existed. what happen to the whole "i'll be there for you if you'll be there for me" ? eff this shit.

no one knows me but me. i live my own life. i laugh. i cry. i live. i'm fucken human. i'm not fucken perfect.

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internet is back!

ARG IM FUCKEN PISS! TRUST FUCKEN NO ONE! LKFJAKLSDJFKLADSJLF FUCK EVERYTHING I JUST WANNA FUCKEN PUNCH YOU IN THE FUCKEN FACE IF WHAT I KNOW NOW IS REAL. I GAVE IT MY ALL. AND MY TRUST HAS BEEN ABUSED ONCE AGAIN? WHAT DID I FUCKEN DO? WHYS FUCKEN KARMA DOING THIS TO ME?! i have no words to describe what i'm feeling..

-April 11, 2009

first of all! happy birthday loserface Jason! go t the strip club and bring me back something! haha jk. or am i? ;]

second, my net it still down so imma just blog bout my days on notepad and copy&paste later. :P

Today was the YUCA 15th Anniversary banquet, and it was BOMB! First I got up and got all my stuff ready, then went to pick up Michelle, and got dropped off at YUCA around 1 ish. We all eventually 'practiced' *cough* ok ok so we only practiced for a bit, and i was eating ice cream while dancing cause i'm pro like that :] Sophia then started curling my hair cause she was bored, so i decided on getting ready. After I got my hair done, I changed into my dress, and put on make up. Yes I am very aware that I looked hella cute ;D COME ON EVEN GIRLS HIT ON ME CAUSE I'M THAT CUTE! just keeding loves :] So then after everyone finally arrived around 4:30, we started loading the speakers and all that what not into the cars and raced our way there! ok we didn't race! or did we? :O keeding bout that too! Got to the resturant, OMG SO PRETTTY!, started detting up and practicing. After a couple of practices we went outside to take group pictures. Eventually guest FIANLLY started arriving bout 6ish. Actually, a litle earlier, but anyways! mhmm! appatizers were yummy! Even though I didn't eat much cause we were going to performe soon. I believe that we started to get ready bout.. 6:50? AND GUESS WHAT?! we did't perform till like almost an hour later! poor Vanny baby had a headach :[ FINALLY WOOT WOOT! PERFORMANCE TIME! oh mannn the floor didn't work with us >< Michelle Tran and I were holding each other hands so tight during Anthony and Justins fighting scene! OMG THEY ID IT PERFECT! and apparently they ended up hurting themeselves. LOL. But above all, Modern&traditional performance were both really good! best performance of all time! Then we went back to change and chow down :] RAWRS I didn't want the chicken anymore so I traded with Justin for the beef! MHMMM! Then they played the slideshow of pictures. AND I STARTED THE WHOLE CELL PHONE & WAVING HANDS IN THE AIR SHITTTT!bwahhahahha After that I just chowed down while Dennis was giving like a 30 min speech? MHMMM DESSERTS WERE GOOD! I told Trinh to pick chocolate moose and she did! :D I ended up eating 2 cakes cause Tiffany didn't want hers. Damn I felt fat! AND FIANLLLY! THE DANCING STARTED! CHYEAA! FIRST ONE ON THE DANCE FLOOR BABY! They played 'Girls On The Dance Floor' first by FM so I was happy :] Damnnn battling was so much fun! Ya'll wish you can handle me ;] My legs were so sore though! So for 3 hs straight, I was dancing. Dragging everyone in was more fun. I was freaken all over the dance floor! All the guys think that they can all own me together by dancing all around me, PSHHHH I can still keep up homies! CHA CHA SLIDE! <3 Err I hated what happen when 'All my Life' played though.. ANYWAYS! Then someone requested YMCA for Dennis cause he hates that song :] Everyone was dancing around him! hah! OMG when 'With You' & 'Forever' played, everyone got alll crazy! The rest of the night was just.. perfect :] Actually, the whole night was, it wrapped up my spring break <3 So after they turned on all the lights, we all took pics, said good byes and gave hugs. Thanks for making my spring break and night loves <3 You guys know who you are ;] Trinh drove me home and I ended up getting back at like 12:30am.

Right when I got home my dad was all bitchy already. Totally killed everything! But whatevers! Texting Davis, Vannessa, Michelle, and Van is making me forget bout it :]

-April 13,2009
went to trying on my cambodian dress this morning. ate pho with mommy. went home. slepted. went to zen buffet. damn the war for crab legs is scary x.x

-April 14, 2009
Playing: Drop N Harmony - Say That (You Don;t Care)

rawr rawr rawr so spring break is over. school & work is back. spending my days at lincoln. etc.

Chem
took a test. i believe i Aced it! slowly getting back to my studying habits. reviewed for final tomorro.w I'M EFFED!

Am. Lit.
SHIT my grade went from an A to a B. stupid Crucibe essay and project. Got a B+ on both of them. totally killed my nails cause i was frustrated.

Math Analysis
TOTALLY FAILING THE CLASS WITH A 53% i MUST pass the final with atleast a 66% or above! above would be hella better! arg

so like i didn't feel like going to french today cause i felt like shit. so i just left. went to McDonald with Judy. then i went to meet up with everyone at lincoln. damnn faith freaken attacked me! she's lucky she didnt spill my soda! then walked to dino's to meet up with everyone else. walked to work. fell asleep. davis dropped off arizona green tea! <3 :D thanks buddy! work began. half of the time i was in the comp lab stealing pics from dennis. went back to work. not much to do today. left work. freaken cold! bumped into chiara in the dash. she got off the next stop. and guess who i saw walking? then michelle left. got home bout 6:45 maybe? painted my nails cause i broke the curlics so now they look like shit. i should be studying, but i'm eating my life away with hershey kisses!

2 more days..

life sucks balls.

i'm effing sore. i'm at michelle's house right now and i still dont have internet. i have a blog typed on a notepad. but it's just sitting on my desktop waiting to be posted up. LOL

so today was a good and bad day. oh wells. can't wait till i see my lovers on thursday :]