UP!

WAS SUCH A GOOD MOVIE!

from ricky :)

You Are Loved

Though things get tough
you of all people know
that no matter how rough
you have to always smile and let it go

You're always amazing at what you do
doesn't matter how it's done
everyone you know loves you
so don't you ever pack up and run

You're cuter when you smile
and more adorable when you laugh
you're uniqueness is in your style
and you can be as complicated as math

But nonetheless you're loved
by everyone and me
so don't be sad, don't cry or feel unloved
cause if noone else does i'll still love you in reality
and in dreams

pretty bomb like tick tick ;)

Verdugo/Twin Day & YUCA elections

so i didn't make it ..

but congrats to everyone else that did! :)

i still get a chance to be in Increase the Peace Committee though! so there's still hope! :]

TIME FOR A NEW!

junior year is coming to an end. and i'm leaving verdugo for lincoln.

time to really getting my act straight!

bring my grades up!

no more ditching 4th period!

save money! senior year ain't cheap!

get my priorities straight once again!

get over whats done and live on with life!

sleep more!

dance can NOT currently wait ! show is in 3 weeks!

& stop singing love story so much cause love can wait! patience :) [ok the patients part yes, the singing, no :P]

uhh .. i'll figure out more later

happy birthday Richard Kang & Senh! :D

i thought i was over it..

but i realized that i fell too hard for someone who says the same things to his past..

i shouldn't have read what was shown to me..

life goes on.

univerlsal city walk

TODAY WITH THE ASIAN MAFIA'S :)

and i am

having such a good night!

i'm just like singing and dancing and smiling soooo big :]

i'm letting go, because i'm grateful that your still around and your not leaving & i'm pretty sure of that :]

SAT SCORES

I FAIL AT LIFE!

1140!

Critical Reading 380 Math 420 Writing 340

FUCK YOU

FUCK YOU! FUCK YOU! FUCK YOU! FUCK YOU! FUCK YOU! FUCK YOU! FUCK YOU!
FUCK YOU I HOPE SOME FUCKED UP SHIT HAPPENS TO YOUR FUCKEN ASS!

HAVIN' A VERY GOOD DAY!

so like school was very good today! i got lots of hellos, good mornings, and smiles :] i actually stayed awake in all my classes today! it was just a good day! i didn't even panic during my math analysis test! hopefully i did well! :]

work. i was soo ready to torture my kids! which i did with gummy bears :]

that hr and a half walk with michelle was nice

and the best part of my day!
MMMCrayonzz (10:53:22 PM): they said
MMMCrayonzz (10:53:23 PM): FOR SURE
MMMCrayonzz (10:53:25 PM): you're in
MMMCrayonzz (10:53:40 PM): and you just gotta wait sometime in june for a letter
yummyxbobasaur (10:53:47 PM): YESSSSSS!
MMMCrayonzz (10:53:52 PM): the lady said NOTHING TO WORRY ABOUT
MMMCrayonzz (10:54:00 PM): quoting off of her
--GOODBYE VERDUGO AND HELLO LINCOLN ! :D

EPIK HIGH!

APEX Youth Olympics

FIRST PLACE BABY!
TEAM 11 SHARKS!
COLOR: ORANGE
:)

and so

your all just giving me more of a reason to not regret leaving.

thanks <3

FUCK LIFE

FUCK EVERYTHING

JUST BLAME EVERYTHING ON FUCKEN ME

CAUSE I DONT FUCKEN CARE BOUT SHIT ANYMORE

I CANT FUCKEN TAKE THIS SHIT ANYMORE

LYING TO MYSELF SO I WONT DRAG OTHERS DOWN WIHT ME

YEA YOU SEE THAT SMILE YOUR ALWAYS GETTING FROM ME? TOTAL FORCE

MAYBE MY DAD IS FUCKEN RIGHT, I'M A DRAG TO EVERYONE

FLKSDAJFKLJSDFKL JSDLJGMDOMJD;OGSJDGKLBMD;OSA

gina, i'm sorry for making you feel like you've been replaced and just ended everything. you know i would never call anyone else my best friend
kenn, i'm sorry i was just a distraction and a burden to your stressful life, i wish i didn't try to get you to go out so much and distract you when i knew you were busy.. i wish i was a better girlfriend, i wish i didn't let fall so hard.. i wish i was as strong as you are
van, i'm not being helpful on going along with this when i know you'll get really hurt, make the right choices.. i don't want to see you hurt again.. i can honestly say i'm just jealous of what you and justin have even though we know the outcomes
michelle, i'm sorry i'm not being a really good friend but really always bitching at you, live life the way you want
justin, i'm sorry for pressuring you, it's your choice
davis, i'm sorry for not trying my hardest, i know your trying your hardest to keep me at the state where i'm bubbly
moses, i'm sorry i never find the time for you when you really need me, i'm not the greatest sister you say i am
ashton, i'm sorry for bailing on you alot cause i don't want to lead you on, i wanna stay good friends only, nothing more
everyone at verdugo, sorry for making you sad bout me leaving, i can't stand it there anymore
i'm sorry to everyone for always being so demanding, bitchy, an annoyance, and not being the best i should be when i promised i would.
etc

im sorry i let myself bottle everything up and lying to your faces.
this is what a i get for all i've done
everything is my fault
how long did i think i can do this?
forever
yea see this smile? total fake to forget.

i've finally snapped

i can't do this to myself anymore

i miss my past, i miss my best friend, i miss ken, he's not the asshole you all see, he's a really good guy that knows what he's doing, i miss everything

i wished i tried harder instead of being selfish

i wish i was as strong as i use to be..

whatevers fuck my life

happy mother's day

SoCal Spring Gathering O9

Lady Tiger's Basketball Banquet

happy birthday Jamie :) hope you enjoyed your surprises today :]

so after school i went to cuess with Jenn & John. god i'm getting too addicted again

after, John dropped me off at Dana's house. i fell asleep for a while. then we walked to McDonald, then to lincoln hs. it was a nice walk actually. we got to the gym. said hi to a few people. Julie was getting her hair curled by Cindy i think thats her name. sat. had speeches. awards. FOOOD. damn Julie and i kept dancing on the tables haha. i believe i left about 10ish? walked with paula, julia, and chiara to he locker room, nd the coach was talking to me and wants me to join next year. oh god ><

well after John drove me home.

blehh i hate how things change. i want to know. i wanna know how you feel. whats on your mind. am i just another girl? why am i letting you come back to mind? i'm suppose to be forgetting even though i dont want to. i hide it to not let it affect me. i try my best to think negative so you can get out of my mind. tomorrow marks a month. i miss having you around. i miss talking to you. i know eventually i'll get over it.. even if i say i don't want to, but i still have things to say..

i think sometime this week imma go to the park to take a walk and feed the ducks

cause i had a GOOD day :)

everyone went to school in such a good moood :O

school was whatevers. but i'm pretty sure that a majority of the class bombed the math analysis test. T.T

so afterschool when i went to the magnet office to turn in my summer school application and get my transfer paper done.. this is how the convo went
Swanson: excuse me? transfer ? nu uh i'm not signing this! look at what she wants me to sign! should i sign this? *talks to other counsler and english teacher*
*gives me a look
-has no idea what they are talking about-
*swanson signs paper* and says fine leave us go ahead whatevers!
and that took 10 mins of an argument to sign a paper.. =.=

when i got off the bus i met up with Andy and he went to Dino's with me cause i was suppose to meet up with Van. I got a yummy tuna sandwich :D so then van finally came then we headed to the dash bus stop. got to chinatown. walked around. bought random shit for my cell xD and dana. its so cute! went to get boba. went back to lincoln to dana's house. chilled. talked. good day to just sit outside and talk :] vaan left. dana walked me to the bus stop. AND A CAR ALMOST HIT ME! i just stood there after i gasped and dana pushed me >< my life would have been :O THANKS DANA <33

after i got home. sat around. was going to nap then we went on stickam as usual. then i started making flowerssss :)

YESS!

I'M OFF THE WAITING LIST FOR LINCOLN AND WENT TO GET MY APPLICATION TODAY!

life is both good & bad

but i miss my best friend

even though we fight and have our differences

she's still my best friend..

S.A.T.'s

I HOPE YOU DIE AND BURN!

GOD WAKING UP AT 7AM, DRIVING ALL THE WAY TO LA CANADA HIGH SCHOOL TO SIT ON MY ASS FOR 3 HOURS HELLA SLEEPY! atleast i knew melissa in there :x

so after SAT's were done, i saw gerogia & andrea! whew so glad to have school buddies around but sitting around waiting for my ride was blahs. oh wells. it was a nice weather :]

so kathy&phu picked me up! god kathy i ahte it when your driving phu's car. i get scared >< so then they dropped me off at the mall. thanks loves!

eventually ashton came. then we went to get movie tickets for Xmen. i bought mcdonalds cause i was hungry. then we went to moveis. damn it was packed. so we sat somewhere near the bottom. the movie wasn't as good as i expected , but i still think its good. after we just walked around. and he bought me a cookie! :D after he just dropped me off at home

:)

PROM

Roses in the Moon Light
Theme & Song: All My Life

-skipping school section-

so once i got off the school bus, john picked me up and dropped me off at Sally's house. first she did my make up and she did my hair as well. OHH SOOO PRETTY! freaken ken said to be ready by 5 but they werent even done yet! could ahve took our time! so then sally walked me over to sian's house. eventually andy finally came and we went to pick up Phoebe and finally we left for prom! errr traffic! so andy's dad got frustrated so we ended up walking a block or 2 down to the omni hotel.

finally arriving, we waited around, took some pics, then lined up to enter. once we got in we just stood around, mingle, more pics, blah blha blahFINALLY THE DOORS OPENED! so we settled down on our tables. our table number was 37. ehh the appetizer looked.. ugly. BUT THE MAIN COURSE WAS DELICIOUS! that chicken was gooood!after they played slideshow. but it kept freezing so they ended up not showing it. after all that was the prom king & queens court thingy. after the crowning, they had their dance. man the song "all my life" is like following me everywhere for the past 3.5 weeks. rawrs~ anyways! after all that we had our toast! APPLE CIDER BABYY! and finally.. THE DANCEEEEEE!

dance ashely and i just ran our ass in there and started partying ;D after a while we took off our heels and started getting down! hah brian is a dork. sian is just a party animal. edward can handle! ken was alrady too tired to dance. anyways! damnn i tried to not go all crazy tonight cause i need my energy for SAT's the next morning! but yea after a while of dancing with brian i started dancing with edward then ashley and everyone else haha pshh fucken andy tried calling me out for a battle! kimmy too! hah i love that girl whew so like about 2 hrs later edward and i went out to get some water and a break. whewwww i was sweatinggg~ oh and he found an empty bottle of apple cider so we just drank away and share with bill&i forgot his dates name :x whew agter a long break, they finally started playing good music again so we ran back in . DAMNN edward can keep up with my speed and evergy! ahahaha i think we took another break like an hr or so later cause music got boring again. so wendy, edward, and i just sat around. and ashley came so we all just sat and chilled. they finally played the cha cha slide when we were talking bout it! LOL so we just ran in and started doing it! so from tehre on we just stayyed on teh dance floor and danced the rest of the night awayyy ~ man they should have ended with a slow slong instead of "celebrate".

so after it was all over, i went to get my bags from kimmy&cathy. then we went outside to wait for andy's dad. damn that took forever! andy pissed me off cause he wet me and it was already freezing cold out! he didn't even say sorry he just did it out of the blues. so i was pretty mad. edward and sian left before us. damn i should have asked them for a ride. finally andy's dad came and i got home about 2ish. once i got home i uploaded pics. jumped into the showers. AND THEN KNOCKED OUTTTT ~

i can't wait for my prom now :)
thanks john for the ride!
thanks sally for the hair and makeup!
thanks ken for inviting me to prom!
thanks edward for dancing with me majority of the time even though you were tired!
and even though you pissed me off, thanks andy for the ride
and everyone else that made it fun :)

congradtulation lincoln high school class of 2009!
Visionaries~

Lincoln High School Prom 2009

YESSSS THE END OF APRIL CURSE!
let's hope for may flowers :)

today and i get less then an hr to get ready!

plan:
school & don't ditch 4th period.
either take bus or get a ride to sally's house
get hair and make up done.
MUST BE READY BY 5!

fuck i got my rag the night before prom =.=
OWNED