what if.. ?

so today i was sitting around and thinking.. what if i spend my last year of high school at lincoln instead of verdugo? would my academic skills be better then they are now? cause honestly thinking bout it, verdugo magnet has lazy ass teachers. they're all so chill it's not even funny. sometimes i feel like i'm not even learning anything. i mean like there are most teachers that allow their students to turn in work late and all that what not [i still do my work though] , won't that just make us irresponsible by not completeing our work by the due date? heck i rarely even get alot of hw. maybe a couple of times but not like everyday where i should be studying my butt off.

the class schedules i enjoy, some teachers where i can actually talk to, but i don't feel happy there. waking up early and catching the school bus is a bitch. having a 4th period and getting bout bout 4:30 is ARG. lack of sleep mannn.

but if i were to go to lincoln, id get an extra hr of sleep and it's really not that far from home. i've seen my friends working their butts off in class. well.. homework. and taking as many AP classes as they can handle while i'm not cause i need certain classes for the A-G requiremnets thingy and i can't take the ap class cause i can't fit it into my schedule. i mean i can take 3 AP classes next year, but am i really up for that?

friends wise shouldnt even be on my mind cause transferring for friends shouldn't be a reason. that should be like the bottom of the list. and high school is suppose to be fun, but i'm not having any fun at all.. it's like.. sometimes i just feel left out at school.. i dont know whats up anymore.. i don't know what i want.. i'm just wondering..

what if..