FUCK LIFE

FUCK EVERYTHING

JUST BLAME EVERYTHING ON FUCKEN ME

CAUSE I DONT FUCKEN CARE BOUT SHIT ANYMORE

I CANT FUCKEN TAKE THIS SHIT ANYMORE

LYING TO MYSELF SO I WONT DRAG OTHERS DOWN WIHT ME

YEA YOU SEE THAT SMILE YOUR ALWAYS GETTING FROM ME? TOTAL FORCE

MAYBE MY DAD IS FUCKEN RIGHT, I'M A DRAG TO EVERYONE

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gina, i'm sorry for making you feel like you've been replaced and just ended everything. you know i would never call anyone else my best friend
kenn, i'm sorry i was just a distraction and a burden to your stressful life, i wish i didn't try to get you to go out so much and distract you when i knew you were busy.. i wish i was a better girlfriend, i wish i didn't let fall so hard.. i wish i was as strong as you are
van, i'm not being helpful on going along with this when i know you'll get really hurt, make the right choices.. i don't want to see you hurt again.. i can honestly say i'm just jealous of what you and justin have even though we know the outcomes
michelle, i'm sorry i'm not being a really good friend but really always bitching at you, live life the way you want
justin, i'm sorry for pressuring you, it's your choice
davis, i'm sorry for not trying my hardest, i know your trying your hardest to keep me at the state where i'm bubbly
moses, i'm sorry i never find the time for you when you really need me, i'm not the greatest sister you say i am
ashton, i'm sorry for bailing on you alot cause i don't want to lead you on, i wanna stay good friends only, nothing more
everyone at verdugo, sorry for making you sad bout me leaving, i can't stand it there anymore
i'm sorry to everyone for always being so demanding, bitchy, an annoyance, and not being the best i should be when i promised i would.
etc

im sorry i let myself bottle everything up and lying to your faces.
this is what a i get for all i've done
everything is my fault
how long did i think i can do this?
forever
yea see this smile? total fake to forget.

i've finally snapped

i can't do this to myself anymore

i miss my past, i miss my best friend, i miss ken, he's not the asshole you all see, he's a really good guy that knows what he's doing, i miss everything

i wished i tried harder instead of being selfish

i wish i was as strong as i use to be..

whatevers fuck my life