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Oh man this morning I was so tired I didn't even want to roll out of bed.

School was alright. Now a days I'm trying my best to stay up and concentrate in class. Today I actually realize that in some classes, I sit around the wrong people who do not work at all. I mean yeah they do work, but they're just easily distracted that I allow myself to be distracted. I guess the only class that I wasn't annoyed in was ballet because since Fernandez was tired as well, we just did calm silent stretching. It felt good! Although, I hurt my right foot from doing the splits & stretching. But it's all good!

Man for some reason, I just start to feel so distance from people. It's like suddenly, friends stop talking, and everyday is like.. silence.. Yeah people have their own things and all that what not, but it bugs sometimes you know?

Arg work, I was just so frustrated today with Dalton! I try my best to find anyway to explain to him how to do his math homework. But all he kept doing was guessing and guessing. He didn't even bother trying! I'm making the steps so obvious and he's still guessing! Even if I write out "a positive plus a negative equals a negative" "If your dividing by a negative it equals a positive" "To bring this number to the other side, you have the do the opposite. So since this number is a positive, how do you bring it to the other side? You subtract it" etc. Sometimes i still wish that kids didn't depend on technology so much these days. I had one student who always says "I'm lazy to look through the dictionary! I'll look it up on dictionary.com when I get home!" Wow. Seriously? How lazy can you get? Since I started working at LHTP, it made me realize how I should be more appreciative of how my dad took his time to help me out of his busy schedule. Shoot even my little sisters are so lazy that when my dad takes his time to help them out, they just get all mad and frustrated. Whatever happen to trying? Honestly, yes I can admit that I can get very lazy and stop trying. But I regret it now. This year I'm more busy then ever and I learned that sacrifices must be made. ALOT of sacrifices.

My schedule consists of..
Monday-Friday: School
Monday-Wednesdays: Work
Every other Thursday: YUCA
Sunday (Saturdays will be added on soon): help teach dance for YUCA Modern & Traditional
Some Friday: IP/YUCA related stuff or Go help mom at the store.
Some Saturdays: Volunteer

ESHHH I put alot of responsibilities on myself this year, and I will not complain. I do it because I WANT TO. I transferred to Lincoln for better teachers & better grades. I work because I can't always depend on my parents to give me money. I am really active and involved with YUCA because I enjoy doing community service, the people, the excitement, and Dennis & Trinh. They both have made a big impact on my life and encouraged me, without doing anything, to do more then I ever thought I would. I choose help teach both modern & traditional because it's my passion. I choose to accept the responsibility of being the Increase the Peace Committee Treasurer because I want to push myself more, and learn, to be a better leader. I help out with YUCA alot, even if I don't need to, because I want to. I go to events early , not only to bother Dennis, but to lend a extra hand. Man oh man. On the other hand, college applications. I still need to start on my personal statement.

Everyone says senior year is suppose to be fun, but I put more on myself then I should. But it's alright! Because I know that it'll all be put to good in the end! I'm proud of what I'm doing now because I would honestly rather be busy with something that will be put to good, then going out everyday and wasting my time. Ok well.. hanging out isn't a waste.. but there will always be a next time!

On the other hand.. arg people man. If you have something to say, think before you speak, because you never know what you will say the wrong thing at the wrong time. Life ain't no fairytale. It's a roller coaster with up's & down's. But not everything will always go your way. It's a pain in the ass. Live with you. Appreciate your life and what you have. Doesn't matter what others say because you live your own life. Heck if your going to let yourself hang on to the past, might as well not look forward to what life has to offer. If your going to waste my time by complaining to me and not doing anything bout the problem, don't even bother coming back to me to pick you up when you fall. Before I would always give up my time for friends, now that I realize that people who don't appreciate aren't worth my time, forget it. Things have changed.

One more thing.. If your not going to try or work hard for it, then why bother at all?

Appreciate the little things in life.